As I sat in my car looking at my daughter practicing basketball, a few thoughts crossed my mind. It have been a tough and long season of troubles, pains, mistakes, bad decisions, regrets and the bitter taste of sin. But as I watch my daughter running up and down the court I suddenly realize that I am free. Not free just because I was sorry, but free because God blessed me with the grace to repent.
I surely mess-up in so many ways; I surely deserve nothing but the flames of hell, but today I am free indeed. The “Balaams” of this world prepared to articulate their curses over my life, but God declared me free. I am free to go after God with all my heart and without distractions. Today I am free to be the father that God wants me to be. I have many personal challenges, but God has given me the courage to face my giants; the power to kill them and the anointing to live the life He wants me to live.
I am not condemned, I am not discouraged, I am not disqualified and I will not allow the accuser of my soul to keep me bound. I can see the turning, I can see the good and I can see the light. God will get the glory in my life; He is greater, without measure, than any giant in my life. The land of my promise awaits; the land of my promise is mine.
I see my daughter who at six lost her mom; who tragically saw her dad at his worst as he engaged in a second marriage. My princess endureth the pain of not knowing what was next. Ileana, like her mom, Jubi as I commonly called her; there she is jumping so high! I saw her as she went through five elementary schools; changed of people, changed of neighborhoods; but here she walks into this practice, this new team, like she is being here forever. God knows how to turn things around. There is my princess, in the center of the court, strong, courageous and fearless. New coach, new teammates, hard practice, but there she is pressing on… This is your day baby! Life surely has made you tough! My baby can sweeten your soul with a song and be your worst nightmare on the court. Go Jubilee go! Your daddy is surely proud of you!
February 12, 2011
“The only exceptions are Caleb son of Jephunneh the Kenizzite and Joshua son of Nun, for they have wholeheartedly followed the LORD.” (Numbers 2:12) (NLT)
No doubt that Joshua and Caleb were not perfect men; they were just like the rest of us; they needed to carry their own humanity day in and day out. However, these individuals had the honor of being the only two people out of the original group that came out of Egypt, that went on to enter the promise land.
Not only did they enjoy this distinction, but also, the “Reina Valera;” perhaps the most popular Spanish Bible Version, actually stated that these two men were perfect in their pursuit of God. To go after something wholeheartedly means: “To go after something enthusiastically, entirely, unreservedly, unconditionally, etc. It is characterized by unreserved enthusiasm, passion, or commitment.”
Is it possible to be perfect? Perhaps yes and perhaps no! Without God we can’t go any further. We all know that as we stand right now and if we are honest with ourselves, that we still have issues in our lives that need some more fixing. What we know, confirmed by this Scripture, is that we can go after God with all of our hearts and that our pursuit of God can, indeed, be perfect. I am talking about a hunger for Him, a hunger for His presence and a sincere desire to surrender more and more of us to God.
You and I have our own promised land to conquer; the Lord already gave us the land; it is ours to take; we just have to fight for it. But the issue here is not to fight with our own strength; the issue is not in having more of God. We have all that we need in us from God and more. The issue is for us to be reckless in our trust to God and go after HIM with all of our hearts. Let God have more of us!
For those that want to sound the trumpet of negativism and declare the impossibility of such commitment; Joshua and Caleb stands as statutes with mirrors on each side that reflects the condition of our own heart and our trust and loyalty in other gods. For those that are injected with faith that goes beyond circumstances, Joshua and Caleb stand as soldiers of encouragement. They stand as two men with a powerful inspirational message that casts out all fear, a message that cries out “Go forward!” a message that will never back-down, even in the terrorizing presence of death.