Healing & Wholeness, A Personal Testimony


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In April of this year I was diagnosed with Type II Diabetes. For me, exercise and eating right is vital. I have to take medication twice a day and even with that, if I don’t exercise and eat right, my sugar numbers will go to the roof.

Back in April of this year I really felt like I was dying. I was constantly drinking water, constantly in the bathroom, constantly thirsty, not able to sleep well and loosing weight rapidly. All these are indicators of diabetes.

I don’t like to go to the hospital and I really don’t like to go to doctor’s visits, even as I married one. But I knew something was terribly wrong. I felt like I was about to pass-out with every step I took in my job.

As I took myself to the hospital, I quickly found out that my sugar numbers were over 900, so I was taken to the emergency room. For those that have no clue what this means; the normal number after a meal should be 140. The doctor told me, that is one of the highest numbers he has ever seen. Not the kind of record I want to have.

My mom came to Fairbanks to visit us the day after my doctor visit that landed me in the emergency room. She was truly a Godsend! My mom has been a diabetic for many, many years. It actually runs in the family. She was truly a great help as I started processing the news of my diagnoses.

During the summer here in Alaska there is plenty of sunlight and plenty to do. I love Alaska because it forces us to work hard and prepare for the winter.

I stayed active cutting trees, splitting and stacking wood; working around the house, building things, etc. through the whole summer my sugar numbers were next to normal. When I went back to my doctor, just three months later, the progress was amazing. Dr. Wright congratulated me and encouraged me beyond my abilities. God really used Doctor Wright from Tanana Clinic to help me through this process.

As the weather started changing and the cold, snow and darkness came upon us. My physical activity level decreased dramatically and I saw my numbers sneaking back up. I can’t cut trees and work around the yard as I did during the summer. After all, we have very little daylight! But, I can go back to the gym; is not as fun, but is a most for me.

I have to tell you that one hour on the treadmill can’t even come close to splitting wood, but is truly better than nothing. I see my numbers getting better again and I am feeling much better.

I feel like talking about this topic because the name it and claim it crowd is really irritating me. First, let me establish that it is God’s will for us to be healthy. 3 John 1:2 tells us,

Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers. (NKJV)

What we need to understand is that this verse goes beyond physical healing. It involves financial and emotional prosperity also. The problem is that we want the physical healing, but ignore other very important aspects.

Our physical decisions, (What we chose to eat and the lack of exercise) and, what we allow to enter in spiritually, will have a drastic effect in our health. The spiritual aspect of our lives, I say, it is the foundation of our health.

You and I can declare healing until what? Until the cows come home. However, if we don’t exercise, if we don’t eat right, if we continue to fellowship with evil through the music we listen to, through the movies we allow ourselves to watch, through the people we give our fellowship to, through the books we read and, basically, through a Godless lifestyle, that healing will never come… NEVER! Jesus told one of the man He healed in John 5:14,

Afterward Jesus found him in the temple, and said to him, “See, you have been made well. Sin no more, lest a worse thing come upon you.” (NKJV)

The reason many people do not experience any healing or any improvement in their health is because they insist in doing the same things that caused their health to deteriorate. My little sugar machine do not lie to me; it tells me every day if what I eat was right, wrong or terrible; it is up to me to make the right choices.

So we pray… yes, we are supposed to do that, but we obey the Word; that should be the end-result of prayer. Is not just throwing some words to the air. In prayer we speak, God speaks and we obey by doing what He tells us to do.

Healing is great, but God wants to take us into a place of wholeness. That wholeness is found in sincere praise, a lifestyle of worship and obedience to our God. In Luke 17:11-19 we read an amazing story that illustrated perfectly the difference between healing and wholeness. Here is the story of ten lepers. All of them cried out, “…Jesus, Master, have mercy on us!” Luke 17:13 (NKJV). They were all healed; however only one received wholeness.

 15 And one of them, when he saw that he was healed, turned back, and with a loud voice glorified God,

16 And fell down on his face at his feet, giving him thanks: and he was a Samaritan.

17 And Jesus answering said, Were there not ten cleansed? but where are the nine?

18 There are not found that returned to give glory to God, save this stranger.

19 And he said unto him, Arise, go thy way: thy faith hath made thee whole. Luke 17:15-19 (KJV)

Now look with me at what the word “Whole” here implies, “To save, deliver, make whole, preserve safe from danger, loss, destruction.[1]” On the other hand the word “Cleanse” means, “To cleanse, free from filth[2]”.

Healing can be a temporary thing. I have heard healing ministers express their frustration as the same people that received healing today are back on the same line not too long after that. That is because they have not change. See, anybody can receive healing, but only those that are grateful and have a heart after God receive wholeness. Have you notice the mighty men in the Bible? They all die full of life. They were not sick; they just die of natural death.

As I deal with this diabetic issue, I have complete dependency on God, but that does not take away personal responsibility. I have to put a stop to many things. I can’t wait on anybody to exercise for me or with me. People that don’t exercise nor enjoy any kind of physical activity surround me, with the exception of a very few. I love them, but I have to move on and stop waiting on them; I needed to stop foolish driving around for worthless events, I needed to say no to certain things. I must take care of myself, because nobody will…and I mean, NOBODY!

I must follow God and do what HE tells me to do. I must go after HIM with all of my heart in prayer, in worship and adoration. I must give HIM glory in the mix of all, with or without the manifested healing…after all, HE is still worthy and HE has already done more than enough for me. With that heart I pursue HIM. I just don’t want healing from my health issue; I want to be made whole and that is my pursue, that is my passion! How about you?

[1] Zodhiates, S. (2000). The complete word study dictionary: New Testament (electronic ed.). Chattanooga, TN: AMG Publishers.

[2] Zodhiates, S. (2000). The complete word study dictionary: New Testament (electronic ed.). Chattanooga, TN: AMG Publishers.

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